I do love someone but it won't come out of my mouth. Because i'm scared that it won't be, "me too"

I know life is not easy 

 I try to smile

He made me smile when I thought it was impossible to smile again. 

 He does care. 

Trying to be me. But the real me is annoying.

i'm sometimes silly.

But a lot of times sad. 

I smile because of her 

and maybe someone else.

 I don't know my best friend anymore.

I have a million secrets who doesn't? 

 I read to get away.

I write music to be happier. 

 I'm sorry for being me.